When your crush is still in love with their ex

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Alice Wild Williams

Charlie, (Christopher Abbott) remained steadfastly in love with his ex, Marnie, (Allison Williams) in the series <i>Girls</i> despite dating a handful of lovely women.

Charlie, (Christopher Abbott) remained steadfastly in love with his ex, Marnie, (Allison Williams) in the series Girls despite dating a handful of lovely women. Photo: HBO

I suppose that in the vast expanse of human experience, falling in love with somebody who is still in love with somebody else is statistically common. Not unique. But like any and all tropes of the romantic inclination, knowing that it’s happened to other people doesn’t really make it hurt any less when it happens to you. It’s like someone quoting the ever increasing divorce rate at a person who is just about to file for one, as though they should have known better in the first place. Nobody wants to be a statistic. 

Maybe to begin with you didn’t even recognise the landscape. Too caught up in meeting somebody wonderful, you trip through the new-relationship milestones of meeting friends and family, learning their history, the way they sleep, what makes them laugh. It might take weeks or even months before you realise something askew in the way their friends, their family, their history skirts carefully around one issue, one person, in particular.
Or maybe they let you know the very first time you meet ‘I guess I’m still not totally over him’.

It’s a small enough sentence to dismiss when you really want to. Again your selfish, foolhardy heart chooses what it wants to hear and what it doesn’t and your ego is all like ‘Pft whatever, that guy. You just hadn’t met me yet!’

I’m not talking about the full-blown, broken hearted, mournful and pining situation. People at that point aren’t going to be falling in love with anyone new and are really easy to pick - they’re the ones who break off a kiss because their tears are getting in your mouth. It’s the ones who spend 90% of the time fully present in being your mutual crush but 10% of the time dancing with ghosts. It’s when everything else is on track, when your person-of-interest is falling at the same rate you are, when it isn’t a brick and a feather racing each-other from a tall building. It seems impossible they could have any room left for anyone else. What the hell is ‘Somebody that I used to know’ doing in the soundtrack to your shiny new relationship! That’s not supposed to be how this works!

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Again with the statistics and rules. We're all so obsessed with avoiding pain that we use numbers to make rules everybody is supposed to love by. Relationship maths ‘It takes half the time you were with someone to get over them, you were together three years and it’s been 17 months – in one month you’ll be over him!’ your friends sagely intone, ‘You were together five years and you’ve only been broken up for one so you are definitely not ready to meet someone else yet'. The absurdity of this idea that we can use numbers to divine people’s feelings is almost touching in how humanly misguided it is. Just like assuming that because you’re in love with someone and they’re in love with you, that they aren’t also kinda still in love with someone who came before you.

I’ll save you time on Wiki-how and tell you a few things I know.  Yes, you can love two people at once. Yes, it can take certain people years to dissolve the watermark left by someone else– even after honestly and genuinely falling in love with a new person. Yes, it totally sucks.
When you finally work out this is the situation you’re in, ugh, it’s the worst. It’s like realising you caught the wrong train an hour after you got on then, like, getting punched. In the heart.  

Whether they tell you or it just becomes evident over time, it can invade every aspect of your relationship. Every time your partner mentions she likes a song or a movie or poached eggs you’ll think ‘Because poached eggs reminds you of him? Did he like poached eggs? I HATE POACHED EGGS.’

You want to talk about it with them, you want to ask what was so great about this other person, you want a Powerpoint presentation and graphs and numbers, goddamn it! This, perhaps unsurprisingly, rarely goes well. They probably don’t much like being in this situation either and will say things like ‘It’s not a big deal, he was just such a big part of my life…’ or ‘I’m sorry, I don’t love her like I love you. It’s just…’ There will be a lot of crazy-making trailing off of sentences your brain can fill with worst case scenarios ‘It’s just…that she had much bigger boobs. I really miss them’.

You can’t compete with the past because the past isn’t real. Time smooths away sharp edges; nostalgia coats memory’s lens with a cheap Vaseline. Every fight, every annoying habit, every night they went to sleep with their stomach tight from hating their ex falls away, one by one, like broken teeth. 
So what do you do? It isn’t like grabbing their face with both hands and yelling ‘Stop it! Stop loving someone else! Just love me!’ will work. I know because I already tried that.

Your options are like a twisted ‘Choose your own adventure’ book. The tide of your partner’s affection for their past will eventually go out, if you’re around or not. The one break-up bon mot that is definitely true is that it takes time to heal a broken heart.  Stupid maths aside, it takes everybody a different amount of time depending on what needs to be sorted out and worked through and the only thing that really affects the process is how much a person chooses to dwell on things.  Whether you stay with them while they do this or not has got to be up to how much it infringes on what you have together. If you’re fighting about it constantly, if it feels really present in your relationship or if they are being shady and you’re compulsively looking at their ex’s Facebook then I would say you need to put your grown up pants on and end things.

Try and keep your focus on you and on the present and above all really listen to what your person is telling you – if they’re worth their salt then them saying ‘It’s no big deal’ probably actually means the size of the deal is not that big. Listen to them and believe them. I hear that 50% of people in this situation live happily ever after.

 

11 comments so far

  • Great article; some deep and universal thoughts and feelings presented with an appealing modern twist. It probably helps if you can relate intimately to the theme as sadly I can.

    Commenter
    reality bites
    Location
    Sydney
    Date and time
    July 11, 2013, 9:37AM
    • Still remember being on first date with someone who spent most of the time on the phone with her ex and then wondered why there was no second date.

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      davros
      Date and time
      July 11, 2013, 10:19AM
      • "when it isn’t a brick and a feather racing each-other from a tall building"

        sorry to be annoying but things falling from a building fall at the same rate no matter of mass.

        http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mCC-68LyZM

        good article otherwise

        Commenter
        mr science
        Location
        NASA
        Date and time
        July 11, 2013, 10:53AM
        • only in a vacuum.

          Commenter
          davros
          Date and time
          July 11, 2013, 11:29AM
        • Mr science, Obviously you have never dropped a feather. A feather would only fall at the same rate as a brick in a vacuum, and I can't think of any building built in a vacuum. Drag is a function of cross sectional area, among other things, and not mass, while the force exerted on an object by gravity is proportional to mass.

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          Alex
          Location
          Melbourne
          Date and time
          July 11, 2013, 11:38AM
      • The girl who thinks her ex is fantastic and calls him all the time and they are still great friends????? Forget it. The EX should be gone. Pining away for something or someone that everyone except you can see is bad for you is an ugly trait.

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        Gman
        Location
        Sydney
        Date and time
        July 11, 2013, 12:48PM
        • I don't think my exes are fantastic - there's a reason we broke up - but I'm still friends with a few of them.

          There's one ex I am still friends with that pokes fun at how much I talk about my partner.

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          Jim Moriarty
          Date and time
          July 11, 2013, 7:39PM
      • Why even bother going out on dates and f/ing with other people’s emotions leading them on knowing very well feelings are still there for the ex? Take 10 years off if that’s how long it'll take to get over someone just don't look for rebounds ain't fair on others.
        Went out with this guy once after 4th date he told me could not see me as he still had feelings for his ex g/f. I was upset because I did like the guy thought we had something going. I understood and thanked him for telling me at the beginning of our dating not after few months I would of been devastated, however at the same time was a little disappointed thinking why did he even bother having that 1st date with me? Could have done without it as he seemed like a really great guy someone I wanted to commit to. Guess maybe he thought he was over her until such time came I will never know.

        Commenter
        Snow
        Location
        sydney
        Date and time
        July 11, 2013, 2:17PM
        • No ,you dont want a powerpoint presentation,thanks anyway.You want them to love only you,and you to be free to love however many you like.Get real.And even then if your normal, you want to wildly hopelessly devoted to just one too.

          Commenter
          Kane
          Date and time
          July 11, 2013, 3:05PM
          • I'd love a Poweroint presentation! Excellent article, beautifully written - loved it. I was in the same position when I first started seeing my girlfriend and it's not about them loving someone else, it's about the effect a relationship can have on a person even after it's over. You explained this perfectly.

            Commenter
            Nick Davies
            Date and time
            July 12, 2013, 9:08AM

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